Friday, 30 December 2011

I am woman.

If you are ever feeling weak or heartbroken, just remember: 'i am woman'.


Dear 2011.

Dear 2011 i would just like to say that you surprised me quite a bit. I expected this year to be as typical as the last few years, full of drama and regret, but while there was some drama and a little bit of regret you still kicked ass!

Dear 2011 thankyou for the days when i saw my life is amazing.

Thankyou for the wonderful new people i have not only met but have gotten to know, the understanding staff at Taylor & Scott Lawyers and Beacon Lighting, i have learnt more than i ever thought i would this year.

Dear 2011 thankyou for Stephanie Cheniart, without this girl i would not have survived and i sure as hell would not be thanking you for anything right now. I have learnt that some friendships are worth everything you put into them.

Dear 2011 thankyou for giving me the time, strength, courage, power and support to finally get to know myself as an individual, and not as someone defined by the people in her life.

Thankyou for allowing me to learn some of the biggest lessons in life before it is too late, and thankyou for allowing me to see my mistakes and accept the past for what it is.

Dear 2011 thankyou for giving me more time.

Signed sincerely N.
xx

Thursday, 29 December 2011

Left Neglected.

I just finished reading the second novel by Lise Genova titled 'Left Neglected'.
Lisa is a writer with a PhD. in Neuroscience. After receiving great feedback for her debut novel 'Still Alice' Genova decided to yet again tackle issues of the mind.

'Left Neglected' is a story about Sarah Nickerson, a power career driven mother and business woman who has no time to spare in her busy schedule. After a car accident causes Sarah to suffer brain damage and a neurological condition called Left Neglect she is forced to take a step back in her busy life and slow down before she is left with nothing.

'Left Neglected' is an inspiring read for women of all ages as it makes us all question: what is more important to us - career or family? And how much would we sacrifice to have one or to have both?
This novel is a page turner, once you pick it up you will not be able to put it down, so makes yourselves a strong cup of coffee ladies and prepare to be stunned by how well Genova writes with understanding and compassion of the issues and standards of modern day success.


Ready to welcome the new year.

Hello readers! I hope you all had a very wonderful Christmas and are now prepared to await the new year! My plans have finally been settled, i was so stressed but now i am excited! I will be going to Collaroy Beach with my best friends and staying at Bellagio by the Sea.

Besides from planning NYE i really haven't been up to much, feasting with my family almost every day, reading a lot and working a little. While everything may seem to be all fun and relaxing this passed week has still managed to find its faults.

There is a lot i would like to say on the subject of one particular person who was in my life up until today but i honestly cannot find the right words to sum it up. Lets just say that a leopard never changes its spots. You hurt me once - shame on you. You hurt me twice - shame on me. Needless to say that was the end of that particular relationship.

Apart from all of that i am happy - happier than i have been in a while. I feel strong and confident and i am ready to welcome 2012.

Friday, 23 December 2011

Too much or not enough?

Okay, so here is a thought, am I the only one who wants her boyfriend to be a little protective? I mean not overly protective where every little thing causes an argument but enough to show that he cares and that he is proud to be mine.
It seems as though there is only one extreme with guys. They can only either give their whole selves to you or not enough or some get so confused they vary from one to the other sporadically. It's like 'come on guys! Are we really that hard to understand?'

Tuesday, 20 December 2011

Christmas

Christmas is my favourite time of the year. It means the five wonderful F's: friends, family, food, freedom (no uni) and fun! And it usually means that the weather is toasty warm, with this year being an exception. I hope you are all enjoying this festive season as much as i am.



Happy Holidays
N xx

Dubstep Christmas House

Isn't this light show amazing? Well done to the Cadger family who have been receiving much wanted attention.

Monday, 19 December 2011

Did the dingo really take the baby?

Thirty-one years on and the disappearance of baby Azaria Chamberlain is still a topic of discussion with Zoology Professor Mark Elgar saying that new research shows that the likelihood of a dingo taking Azaria is more likely than first believed.
While parents Lindy and Michael Chamberlain were exonerated from their convictions in 1987 this new information may bring them some hope in gaining recognition of their innocence.

For more read: Evidence growing for Azaria dingo attack

Sunday, 18 December 2011

2011.

As we reach the end of 2011 we are all left reflecting on the year that has passed. While everyone on Facebook is posting about how much they want 2012 to be here already i have to admit that 2011 has been pretty amazing.
There have been many hard times but overall i have had the best time of my life. I didn't go anywhere special or achieve anything great but i gained the best memories and learnt the most important lessons in life.

This year allowed me to see who my true friends are, people who i thought i could count on turned out to be nothing but fakes and those who i never expected to care about me turned out to be those who saved me. I was forced to be alone, truly alone, for the first time in years and while the thought of this would have scared me to death at the start of the year i survived and became a stronger person, i learnt who i was as an individual, this is the most valuable thing that i have gained from 2011.

Apart from all of this smaller things have impacted on my life in a big way, my sister got married and it was difficult adjusting to living without her just across the hall, i guess i never realised how much it meant having her close to me until she moved out. Now she is 6 months pregnant and we are all very excited, this baby means so much to us all and cant wait for the bubba to arrive (ill admit i'm getting a little clucky).

Yes, 2011 has been amazing, i cant remember a year where i laughed more, met more amazing people or showed myself how strong and capable i can be. Thankyou to all those wonderful people who made it what it is, join me in making 2012 even more fabulous?






Sunday, 11 December 2011

Honesty.

Why is it that men are so incapable of telling the truth or being open? I mean, even when we ask them something so simple they cannot give us a straight answer. Oh and fellas, haven't u realized? Women find out everything! So please just be honest and dont try to keep anything from us, cause all your deepest regrets and your best kept secrets will be found out eventually. Didn't anyone ever teach you? Honesty is the best policy.

Saturday, 10 December 2011

Right and wrong.

Who in any given situation determines what is right and what is wrong? I have been thinking about this a lot lately. If something is right to one and wrong to another then how can it be right at all? There are a lot of things I have to figure out and I have no idea where to start. If love, no matter how strong it is, has faults, can it still be absolute?

Friday, 9 December 2011

Love.

Every time i think of you and the future i want with you, with us, this song plays in my head.

Thursday, 8 December 2011

I love you more than words could ever say. I hope that wherever life takes you it some day leads you to me.

Wednesday, 7 December 2011

Monday, 23 May 2011

Autumn.

Good evening Sydney siders!

Hope you have all been enjoying this relatively warm Autumn weather we have been having.
I have been extremely busy! Ive been writing a million articles for my Journalism classes but at the same time i have been enjoying my time off from my Legal Ethics class (which starts again this week).

Nathan's Christening was fun and i also started my new job today - at Beacon Lighting! Yes i know it is very random. It was hard, something that i should have expected. I know nothing about lighting and every time someone asked me a question about a lightbulb i was like 'come again?' but hopefully ill pick it up soon.

Tonight i am trying to relax a little bit before i start my biggest assignment of this semester tomorrow. Really not looking forward to it, i desperately need to get a good grade for it or im screwed!

Anyways, ill upload some photos of what i have been up to lately.

Goodnight xo
Nathan & his Godfather

Nathan & myself.

Tuesday, 10 May 2011

i can finally write again.

hey everyone :)
did you miss me?

A lot has been going on with me. First of all id like to say how cold it is! We are only in the middle of May (not even) and its already freezing!

Id been feeling a little down a few weeks ago, i did not understand why it is that bad stuff happens to me.
I believe in karma, so to me it felt like id done something terrible to deserve all of it but i couldnt figure out what id done wrong.
And then i got some news that reminded me i dont have it so tough.

My worst enemy (as i blogged about not too long ago) has been dumped by her boyfriend. And while im really a nice person id like to say 'sucked in you homewrecker' :)

The moral of the story is, that while i feel like ive been punished for God knows what i actually wasnt, and when i was doubting karma she proved me wrong :)

anyways, im out, i have a 21st birthday to plan. 4 MONTHS AND 7 DAYS TO GO !!!!!!!

oh and one more thing. I actually recieved a comment on one of my posts from someone i dont know! it made me happy.

xo

Saturday, 16 April 2011

Hey!

Its been ten days since i last posted, oops.

Ive been really busy. Im doing work experience in the city with a top tier law firm. Its been exciting and ive learnt a  lot. I really hope i get a job out of it but i doubt it, at least im getting experience though.

Settling in with Harry Potter this evening, the movies that is.

Easter soon :) cant wait to eat lots of chocolate.

Happy mid-semester break to all Aussie university students.

N xx

Thursday, 7 April 2011

New do :)

Own It!

Today i attended the Mount Druitt Youthfest - Own It.
I went because i wanted a good story for one of my assignments.

What can i say about the event?
While i saw some typical Western Sydney teenage behaviour (im sorry to use the stereotype but its so true) the rest of the experience was rather enjoyable.
I was amazed at how good some of the acts were. I will post a video later today and some photos in the next coming days.

That is all for today really.
Oh and one more thing... i dyed my hair, its dark (almost black) with a tinge or red in it. Its a lot darker than what i wanted but i still like it.
I shall upload a photo soon.

Night all xx

Tuesday, 5 April 2011

why?

Why is it that every time i try doing something nice it gets thrown back into my face?
Why cant people just appreciate the nice things i do for them?

Im so hurt.
I try to come to you about one little thing and instead you get the shits at me because i want to talk about something important. How does that even make sense?

So im choosing not to let your anger overpower me to the point where i am the one apologising.
This time you can come to me and say you are sorry!

Wednesday, 30 March 2011

crazy day.

Where do i begin? How about from the start?

Okay so i woke up normally just like every other Wednesday morning, my printer ran out of ink and so i had to hand write my resignation letter. At work, my close friend Steph was being trained on how to pierce ears and so i offered to be her dummy. I now have my second wholes :)

While i worked through the pain my day was still going well, up until i burnt my hand!
Ye however this was all still a typical day for me, i am really clumsy.

I left and headed out to meet Bek for my first ever lesson with Rocket!
It stopped raining the second we were ready to take his out and i took this to be a good omen.
Everything was going great, it took a while but Rocket eventually warmed up to me.

I finally got him to trot and at the wrong second he took off, in the middle of a turn, up a hill. Needless to say i could not hold my balance and came down hard on a rock on my back!

I laughed it off and tried not to let Bek see how much it hurt, and the best thing is i still got back on! After that Rocket was a lot more careful, its funny how aware he was of what had happened, he actually acted apologetic.
My arm is grazed and my left thigh is bruising up nicely, i can barely walk. It sounds like im being a baby but it really hurts!

After i came home i decided it was time to take my parents brand new Mercedes out for a spin! And guess who i run into? The one girl who was so jealous that it ended our friendship 6 months ago! And the same girl who i wrote about in my post 'GIRLS!' a couple of days ago!
Seeing her eyes green with envy made me feel better about everything that has gone wrong for me lately.

Such an interesting end to an interesting day :)

Anyways tomorrow i have a presentation on documentaries, time to get to it.
Night all
xx

Tuesday, 29 March 2011

change.

Did i mention that i quit my job? Well yeah i did, so i am now on the hunt for a new job.
I went into Blacktown Westpoint and when i asked the lady at Temt if they were hiring, she looked me up and down before answering 'yes' shallow much?

I bought new platforms to make myself feel better for the poor job opportunities :) and the new novel by Jodi Picoult! Cannot wait to start reading.

Uni today was boring, one of my tutors is really starting to get on my nerves!
Besides from that i did a lot of thinking today, i thought about everything.
I miss my mum, she comes home on Saturday :)

and boy do i miss you.

Monday, 28 March 2011

Jealousy.

A long time ago I accepted the fact that most girls don't like me. Even before they know me they look at me and decide 'I dont like her' because it's easier for them that way, maybe they think: 'if I don't know her I can make myself believe she is a bad person.' But to those few girls who have actually gotten to know the real me, thankyou you have become my bestfriends and to everyone else, remember: jealousy is a curse!

GIRLS!

Its Monday night in Sydney.
I had a long day at work, and my social life took an interesting hit.
Sometimes i really wonder what goes on in girl's heads?
I found out that a girl i know was coming in between a family with two young boys (homewrecker) and so i deleted her off my facebook, only to then see her posting abusive statuses about me.
Seriously? Grow up girl!!!! Oh and i wonder if your "boyfriend" knows about the boy you have on the side? I think not.
Watch what you say sweetheart.
That is all, goodnight Sydney siders :)

Saturday, 26 March 2011

Saturday.

Good evening Sydney siders :)
Not much to blog about today, had a hard day at work. I think im going to quit the job im at now, my manager is not the brightest person and she is really getting on my nerves. Ive only been at this place for 6 months and its already driving me insane!
Anyways, its 7.12pm  on a Saturday night here in Sydney and its time for me relax.
Goodnight everyone
xx

Thursday, 24 March 2011

body.

Today my bestfriend Bek got back some medical results that she was dreading, and sure enough they confirmed that she was allergic to horses and anything associated to them.
So you may think, why was she dreading this?

Well ill tell you a little story, for as long as i have know Bek she has had a passion for horses. She used to go after school to volunteer at a riding school teaching disabled children how to ride. She didnt care that she wasnt being paid because she loved it, she loved being around the horses and the children.

She is now studying to be a primary school teacher and just recently she completed her certificate and is a qualified NSW Riding Instructor, yes thats right, people have to pay her now.

Im so proud of her for all she has achieved and then a few short weeks later she told me that she had purchased her first horse Rocket. I was excited for my first lesson on Rocket, she always speaks so wonderfully of him.

Today she found out that she is highly allergic to her own horse and the place that makes her the happiest.

Sometimes our bodies betray us, i should know, i take four tablets a day, watch my diet and how i treat my body just to make sure it remains healthy. It is definitely a lot of work.

So to those out there who think to themselves "what the..?"when something unexpected happens, just take it in and don't be so disheartened because no ones body is perfect. And like my friend Bek, sometimes we just need to accept the things that happen to us and move on.

Wednesday, 23 March 2011

Angie.

I met a woman today, her name was Angie. She told me something that i will never forget.
She said to me 'love doesnt hurt' and at first i stared at her baffled by what she meant. I did not understand, and then i reflected upon our conversation and to the reason why we had even met and then i understood.
But i would like to put my own spin on it: 'true love doesnt hurt.'

We hurt people we love all the time, and they hurt us back as well, although it is mostly never on purpose.
But when you meet your true love this would never be an issue, your love for each other could never be painful. This i think is the distinction we all need to make when we are in relationships: is the reason im hurt because of an accident? or is it because of something bigger?

And while i cried hysterically to this woman i barely knew i thought to myself: is what we have true love or just a love that i cannot let go of?

you.

you dont get to just apologise and think that everything will be okay.
you cant say one nice thing and think that ill trust you again.
a lot of time has passed and it will take a lot of time to get back where we were.
you might not have changed, but i have.

Tuesday, 22 March 2011

just a thought.

happiness is like a balloon, the more the balloon fills the more you get scared that it will blow up in your face and be destroyed in an instant.